I was getting coffee before work one day. It was pouring outside, and people were grumpy, and the strong wind did not help the situation at all, but there was something I felt happy about. Not sure what it was exactly but that warmth kept coming out of me making the surroundings much brighter than they actually were. The weather didn’t bother me.
When I made it to my favourite coffee kiosk (I’d go there too often), the guy that was working there complimented me and asked “How come whenever you come over, you smile?” (like the fact that he was absolutely adorable would work any other way on me…) He asked me that and I couldn’t respond right away. It got me thinking though that I do smile to strangers around me even if I’m feeling down. And here is what thought afterwards:
If those around me are not the reason I’m sad or upset, why show them that I am upset? No need to bother them and pass on my negativity just because someone else upset me or said/did something wrong. It’s like that video about people full of trash. You know what I’m talking about?
And that was my answer. To myself though, I never gave him a proper explanation why. However, this doesn’t mean that I’m always happy (no one is and it is normal to feel upset) but even if I’m not, I’d rather deal with it myself and not let things out in the open, especially to those who make me some quality cappuccino.